ARCHIVE: The Countdown

Kate recovering in the hospital after her bone marrow biopsy confirming that she was in remission, September 16, 2013.
Kate recovering in the hospital after her bone marrow biopsy confirming that she was in remission, September 16, 2013.

I cannot believe we are here. (No, really…I cannot believe it.)  Today, we are celebrating the ONE YEAR anniversary of Kate’s remission. (!!)  It also begins the one year countdown until the end of treatment. END OF TREATMENT, PEOPLE! (I hear Dr. D groaning at me…she doesn’t like for me to get ahead of myself.) But still, how could we NOT celebrate this day??? Continue reading “ARCHIVE: The Countdown”

ARCHIVE: Golden

gold ribbon for childhood cancer awarenessI told my mom yesterday that a blog post was forming. That I couldn’t concentrate because so many thoughts were spinning around in my head…I just needed to WRITE. But I can’t. I have nothing to put down in a blog that conveys the profound sadness I feel over losing yet another beautiful young soul to this terrible disease called cancer. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: Golden”

ARCHIVE: Twelve

This is Love. Every card we received the first month, covering our king size bed.
This is Love. Every card we received the first month, covering our king size bed.

Dear Kate,

There are so many raw emotions coursing through me as I sit to write this but it feels nearly impossible to convey what is in my heart. I could tell you all about the memories of this day…a year ago that you were diagnosed. When I think back on those first hours, days and weeks, it would be easy to recall the crushing sadness we felt and the all-consuming fear. Honestly, I’m just coming around to where those feelings don’t haunt me every day. But the real truth is, the overwhelming emotion that comes to mind from the last year…is love. Love from every corner of our world. So, Kate, on this first anniversary of your diagnosis, I will write you a story like one of your favorite books, What is Love Biscuit? Continue reading “ARCHIVE: Twelve”

ARCHIVE: What Remains

Maybe it’s the stinkin’ hot weather and the wet bathing suits hanging in our mud room from Kate playing in her little inflatable pool. Maybe it’s all the beautiful babies in my mom’s group turning one year older and the memory of all of their parties this time last year. Perhaps it’s the visual reminder of the calendar pages flipping by inching us closer and closer to August. These days I’m feeling overwhelmed by sentimentality of…it all. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: What Remains”

ARCHIVE: 3 Years Old

Kate a minutes old baby
Minutes old

I don’t remember the exact specifics of how the story goes, but when I was pregnant with Kate, my mom told me a story about how when SHE was pregnant with my sister, she thought she knew how much she would love her baby and that her dad sort of patted her on the head and said…sure you do, honey. But just you wait. And then, once Jamie was born, my grandfather said to mom, “See? Now do you know?” Continue reading “ARCHIVE: 3 Years Old”

ARCHIVE: Nine (better late than never)

Kate enjoying a cake pop on May 15th!
Kate enjoying a cake pop on May 15th!

Well here we are again, sweet girl. Mommy’s late with a blog post. Before motherhood & cancer, I’ll have you know that your momma wasn’t usually ever late for ANYthing, but you might not ever catch a glimpse of that. My how times have changed! Continue reading “ARCHIVE: Nine (better late than never)”