My daughter was 22. She had her heart transplant when she was 12. I read and follow your story about your Kate. I feel guilty that I had 18 more years with Alyssa. That humbles me. But the pain will always be there. My youngest daughter turns 23 on January 19th. She is Alyssa’s younger sister. But now she will be older. That’s a tough one for me.

I have written you before on your Facebook page. “Cold Play” happens to be something very special too me also. “I Will Fix You” was a huge hit when Alyssa was dying. 7 years later and I still can’t make it to the end of that song without crying. And by that I mean gut wrenching, fall to my knees I can’t breathe crying. I wish I knew what to say to you and help you hurt less. But if I did I would wonder why I had not said it to myself first. I just know the comforting words not everyone knows to say, if they say anything anymore. “I hear you” “I understand” “Cry” “Hold on to your husband” “Keep her room and playroom the same for as long as you need too” “Don’t throw the pasta away” And the one I still can’t say to myself………..”Don’t hold onto the guilt for too long”