ARCHIVE: The One Where I Let it Out

If you know me, you knew this post was coming. I have tried to keep as brave a face as possible and have tried keeping my fears and frustrations stuffed way down so that they can’t haunt me, but there’s no hiding from this kind of pain. I am so sad and frustrated over what life feels like right now that I want to cry, scream, throw things and hide. I want to pack up my girl and run far, far away to where cancer can’t find us. I dream about leaving chemo and pills and side effects behind and just escaping somewhere that none of this exists. That place clearly does not exist and I am just PISSED OFF. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: The One Where I Let it Out”

ARCHIVE: Thankful & Grateful

People are good. People are REALLY good and in the midst of hard times, they come out in droves and prove their goodness. I have a hard time saying that we’re going through “hard times” because all considered, Kate is doing rather well and we are coping. I think we’re managing well, but then, I have pretty high expectations of how our family runs and operates and that? Well, that’s lacking. A lot. If you know me, you know I’m…well…organized. Okay hell, I’m obsessed with organization and while it’s something people poke fun of me about, it’s also something I’m most proud of. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: Thankful & Grateful”

ARCHIVE: 27 Weeks

Kate started her first cycle of the consolidation 2 phase yesterday (Monday, October 28th.) This second part of the consolidation phase will last roughly 27 more weeks. I say “roughly” because at any time, low counts and unexpected illness or infection could delay treatment. We are going to do every single thing possible to not let that happen, so with hopeful hearts, we begin the next 6-ish months. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: 27 Weeks”

ARCHIVE: Go There…but Don’t Stay There

Six words that helped me alter my perspective on how we were going to deal with the blow we’d just received about Kate’s cancer. This is courtesy of my friend, Michele, who I haven’t seen since she graduated a year before me in high school. I don’t know if she realizes the powerful impact of what she said to me back in those early days but it made a real difference. Continue reading “ARCHIVE: Go There…but Don’t Stay There”