Later today Facebook will flood with photos of how everyone spent this beautiful day here in Northern Virginia.
I’ve cried 7 times today.
Month: February 2016
What Do You Say When it Hurts to Say Anything?
I haven’t found the energy to write in days. Longer, it seems. Everything breaks my heart. Everything hurts. Home, work, dinner out with friends…everything. I cry everywhere at everything. Tears sit on the rims of my eyes all day long and they ache and burn from trying to hold it in by the time I’m able to fall into the door at home at night. We collapse in a heap for about an hour, standing in quiet desperation, searching for her, searching for what to do, how to be. How to BREATHE. We pull ourselves together long enough to eat and crash into bed, once again fighting back the nighttime heartbreak and tears knowing that we await the nightmare to begin again when the sun rises and brings us into a new day without our girl.
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One Month…Since
I am overwhelmed by what a month feels like without her. What we’ve missed. What we’ve learned.
We’ve missed a month of dinners with dinosaur guessing games and rounds of I spy. Continue reading “One Month…Since”
I Know…But Why?
I know how Kate died…mostly. I know that in 26 days, leukemia had absolutely taken over her little body and that her white blood cell count was astoundingly high. Continue reading “I Know…But Why?”