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4:04am on this day 8 years ago, you came into this world, Kate Olivia. Tiny, pink and serene, you had soulful blue eyes and the very moment they brought you to me, my entire world changed and I instantly knew my purpose.

I could never have known what was in store or have been prepared for the road ahead, but I also could never have known a love like what I felt. It was you, Kate. You set my whole world on fire and you made every single thing in this world make sense. I could never, ever have understood that while I was the mother, you were the teacher and the very thought of you would make me happy and the very sight of you would make me feel complete.

8 years ago on this very day, you made a mommy which was a role I discovered I was born to play and you became my instant best friend, a role you should have had years to fulfill.

I have so much to say to you. So, so much left to say. I just wasn’t done being mommy. I wasn’t done learning about you, being near you or holding you. As we mark your fourth birthday in heaven, I am overwhelmed knowing you had only as many here in my arms.

So KitKat, today, almost at a loss for words, I am going to wish you a happy 8th birthday in heaven, my love, my life. And I am going to dedicate this beautiful song, written just for you, by our friend.

Adam wrote this song for you on the first anniversary of your new life in heaven, bu he kept it close to his heart until he was ready to share. When he did earlier this year, I felt selfish keeping it quiet, but it seems that celebrating your life here, on your birthday, would be the very best day to share it with the world.

The world needs to be reminded today that you lived. YOU LIVED. You are loved. You are celebrated. You are cherished. You are joy. You are life. You are everything good and pure in this world and I miss you with all of my heart.

You are the love of my life and I wish we could blow out the candles together today. Happy birthday, Kate Olivia.